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Brainpillz
May. 28th, 2012 04:46 pmDoing a bit of a med adjustment atm. Been having so much trouble sleeping lately, and I feel like there’s too much of this stuff in my brain at the moment. I’ve been on this regimen for over a decade, and my pdoc (when I had one, he said with a hollow laugh) gave me quite a bit of discretion to adjust my own dose cos I was so used to it. I’m able to monitor it well enough for the kind of small decreases/increases.
But ugggggh, one day of adjusted dose and I am SO SLEEPY AND GROGGY, it’s gross. Ugh ugh ugh. And I’m more twitchy about med adjustments now after the one that started off the seizures (though that was the GP introducing a new drug to help me when I was SUPERDEPRESSED my first winter here).
Idk, I’m generally fairly at peace with the idea that I’ll probably have to take these drugs or similar for the rest of my life, but today I’m feeling superresentful of them. Ugh, brain, why can’t you handle yourself?? Bleh I feel particularly useless.
Otoh it’s supergood that I’m in a place mood- and cognition-wise where I feel able to reduce my dose a little for a while?
But ugggggh, one day of adjusted dose and I am SO SLEEPY AND GROGGY, it’s gross. Ugh ugh ugh. And I’m more twitchy about med adjustments now after the one that started off the seizures (though that was the GP introducing a new drug to help me when I was SUPERDEPRESSED my first winter here).
Idk, I’m generally fairly at peace with the idea that I’ll probably have to take these drugs or similar for the rest of my life, but today I’m feeling superresentful of them. Ugh, brain, why can’t you handle yourself?? Bleh I feel particularly useless.
Otoh it’s supergood that I’m in a place mood- and cognition-wise where I feel able to reduce my dose a little for a while?
